I won't forget the day that That I came to And I started thinking That there's more Than just perfect prom queens, and silver spoons And all I ever wanted Was someone to knock me back to the bliss of ignorance Cause I feel like running head first into traffic And so I'm here to say That thoughts in bed with pain I won't forget the day that That I found God In a kitchen knife now, and on my arm So paint the pale white floor with With my red blood And tell myself this pain is The pain I love As I swallow the pills of happiness And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake And so I'm here to say That thoughts in bed with pain I stand outside my pretty house I light a match to start the fire I called the cops to let em' know It's 22 Walthery Ave. I thought I wanted this I thought I wanted this I'M HERE TO SAY!! I said I wanted some more attention I thought I wanted a story ending (I love the pain, I hate the pain) I just can't win (I love the pain, I hate the pain) I think that the truth is I'm scared I think that I'm just scared to live I think that the truth is I'm scared I think that the truth is I'm everything that I hate